Gnosis in a Hundred PagesPage 49 of 100 · Part III

Part III · The energy

What to expect, and what not to

Warmth, vivid dreams and stronger moods are common. Visions on demand are not. The truest sign is a steadier life.

Read to me

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A long road climbed slowly, one step at a time.

People who begin these practices usually notice changes within a few weeks. It helps to know what is common, so you neither panic nor make too much of it.

What is common

Warmth or tingling along the spine or in the belly. More energy, and sometimes trouble falling asleep at first. Vivid dreams, and more of them remembered. Desire that grows stronger for a while, as if testing you. Old feelings rising: sadness, anger, tears that seem to come from nowhere. Think of a dam slowly giving way. What was held back has to move through. Let it pass, and do not take it as yours.

What not to expect

Visions, powers or experiences on demand. They may come, or not. Wanting them is a self too, and one of the slyest. The fire is given according to the heart, not according to effort.

Slips

They will happen, in the body, in the eyes and in sleep. A slip is not the end of anything. The self that wants you to give up after a slip is the same self that slipped.

The truest sign is not in your nights at all. It is in your days: a little more patience, a little less craving, a clearer head in the afternoon, and kindness that costs you less.

This work is measured in months and years. Be patient with yourself, and steady.

Try this

  1. Tonight, write down honestly what has actually happened since you began this part: in your body, your dreams, your moods and your days.
  2. Write only what happened, not what you hoped for.
  3. Next to it, write one thing you will keep practicing.
  4. Put the page somewhere safe, and read it again in a month.

If you notice pain, dizziness, panic or distress that does not pass, stop the breathing practices and speak to a doctor. Go gently. Nothing here should hurt.

Words on this page

Signs
The experiences people hope for. The books are wary of chasing them; the real fruit of this work is a changed character, slowly.

In the old words

“The conscious handling of this energy is the patient work of years, and it asks for a maturity and a gentleness with yourself that cannot be rushed.”

Awakening the Inner LightGene Hart
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